The life insurance companies know: my family already has many reasons to hate me.
Lately, I've been making sure I drink myself to sleep every night.
If I don't, I lie awake and I think of all the things I've done wrong. Then I wake up every hour, I remember those things, and think of more.
I did not do that tonight because I realized I was doing it last night, but now I'm afraid of going to bed.