1.18.2008

Fallout

The life insurance companies know: my family already has many reasons to hate me.

Lately, I've been making sure I drink myself to sleep every night.

If I don't, I lie awake and I think of all the things I've done wrong. Then I wake up every hour, I remember those things, and think of more.

I did not do that tonight because I realized I was doing it last night, but now I'm afraid of going to bed.

2 comments:

Ryan said...

i cut back on drinking this month and i can't sleep either.

last night i dreamt about racism, and i ended up a kitchen table with barack and hillary and then someone planted racist stuff in my room because i liked obama.

i think i may go back to drinking

Lacy said...

Smart move.