Life changes so fast, I just kept thinking. This afternoon.
I've been asked to audition for the conservatory program at the Stratford Shakespeare Festival in Canada.
It's a huge deal. If I got in, I'd move to Canada. For a year. IF. if if if if. That is one tough program to get into, because it is one completely AMAZING festival. It's also the best kind of conservatory: One you get paid to be in. If I got in, I'd become Equity. If if if. I'd have to figure out a way to pay the mortgage here. I'd have to find a way to preserve what will, by then, be my marriage. If if if. I WOULD KICK ASS and learn from incredible actors. I would learn a lot. It would be so, so hard. It would be so wonderful. I would miss my friends, my cat, my boyfriend. I would live breathe eat and sleep Shakespeare, which is sort of what I think heaven is like, except with sundresses and pudding. It would be very lonely. I would probably blog a LOT.
IF. LACY! IF!
The call took me utterly by surprise. She asked me if I was interested. I said, can I take 24 hours and figure out my life for the next 18 months? She said sure, sure.
I didn't want to say, I need to talk to my boyfriend, because I didn't want to be That Girl. But, I did.
Here is what the Boyfriend said: Wow. This will be hard, but I think you need to do this. Do the audition and we'll take it from there.
I never mean for this blog to be whiny or complaining. If it leans that way, I am sorry. Sometimes I'm afraid of sharing how much I love my life at times. I don't want to gloat.
But you should know; I know that I have a wonderful boyfriend. And that I'm a very very lucky person. I'll be very sad when I blow this audition or don't get cast or whatever, but for right now... how wonderful to be called and asked. How wonderful.