What do you fear most in the whole world? What is the worst thing that could happen to you?
I will tell you: The thing I fear the most in the entire world is divorce.
Death separates people involuntarily. Divorce separates people willfully and with parting words of pure hatred. It splits families into factions and encourages calculated acts of spite and cruelty over long periods of time. It turns people you loved and who loved you into monsters. It makes you feel like a monster too. It is the worst kind of permanent hateful sad mess.
My parents, as you may have gathered, had a terrible divorce.
I swore for years and years that I would never get married. Nothing was worth the risk of getting a divorce. Until a few years ago I didn't even believe in marriage at all - it was a sham, it was a lie. Besides, nothing could be worth opening yourself up to that nightmare of losing half your family, your home and yourself.
Then ... I found someone who was worth the risk. And that let me do what I truly didn't think I'd ever have the courage to do.
I am engaged.
I am terrified.
I am very excited.
I may have mentioned the terrified part. Did I... ? Ah, okay. Great.