I've heard casting directors talk about this thing:
An actor gets a big audition. The kind of opportunity that calls your bluff on all your dreams and ambitions.
And then that actor, who would normally die for just the chance, seems not to have even prepared for the audition. They barely even show up. As if they just forfeited the game.
Dreams coming true are terrifying. Realizing that you might have the chance to MAKE your dream come true, and find that your best just isn't good enough, that is probably terrifying too.
But I wonder how much you would realize that as you were in the middle of it.