The last audition I had for Badass Edgy Broadway-Exportin' Theater Company was six years ago. I was 24. I was called in for the role of a 35-year-old woman.
Which makes no sense. Nevertheless, I prepared like a mofo.
Then I got SICK. I got could not get out of bed sick. I called the casting director (from my bed, in TEARS) to apologize, and I am pretty sure she didn't believe me, and then ... I didn't get called for 5 years. So it goes.
I have an audition there tomorrow. With these 7 pages, 2 scenes, 1 monologue. I have prepared like a mofo.
Sometimes people just don't feel you. When what you do is so totally subjective, not everyone is going to like it. And it's not that you did a bad job! They just aren't feeling YOU. That is a terrible fear to walk into an audition with. Because nothing you do will ever be right.
Fearing that is a good mental habit to break.
I'm working on that.
For now, I cannot. fucking. sleep.